This is what I’m doing…
Sorry I’m not sorry.
I’ll be back next week.
Posted by tuningtheheart on May 14, 2013
Well ladies and gents, all the applying, waiting, wishing, hoping, dreaming, crying and whining all paid off.
I GOT A JOB TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
It seemed like for months I was searching constantly for an editorial/writing position and could not seem to receive any sort of response. I started applying for marketing, public relations, even SALES opportunities to try to get my foot in the door but no one was responding. I’ve applied close to 100 jobs within the past five months and never. heard. anything.
I’m not saying when I was nannying it wasn’t a job. It is very much so, if not even HARDER than most people I know who go into an office from 9-5. The hours are much longer (50+ if the parents are working full time/traveling and need extra help), the days can be grueling when the child is having a “rough day,” and you have to focus your attention completely on him/her. The family is relying on YOU, and there are no excuses/exceptions if you are sick and can’t make it to work one day. They need you and unless they have vacation days or someone to cover your absence, you need to be there. You’re responsible for another person’s life and every little scratch, bruise or bump they get, you’re accountable for why it happened.
What I am saying is I went to school for four years of my life to get a degree in what I may be interested in doing in the future (I say “may” because my interests could change in the years to come). I’ve always known I wanted to do something related to publishing/editing, so when I didn’t hear anything back I started to feel hopeless.
On my last day with Owen, I had no idea what to expect job wise. I had nothing lined up and I was just going through the motions of figuring out what my next step would be.
And then I got a phone call two days ago for a job offer as an editorial assistant for a publishing house company in Chicago.
I wanted to do five backflips when I got off the phone with them. I couldn’t believe it!!!! They were interested in ME! And they wanted me to come in for an interview!!!!
But I didn’t want to get ahead of myself. I’ve heard back from jobs before, but then I either wouldn’t hear back, the position was “suddenly filled,” or worse, they were no longer interested in me. I didn’t want to tell too many people about this opportunity because for all I knew, it would just be another disappointment.
I got all dolled up this morning, got my resume together, took a deep breath and walked out the door. On my way there, I kept reminding myself why they should hire me and to stay confident, because if I don’t believe in myself, how will anyone else?
When I walked in, I was pleasantly surprised when I was greeted by a wonderfully nice woman, who was not as intimidating as I imagined. I was also surprised to find out this was a very different “interview” than I’d pictured in my mind.
This woman worked for Core Staff, a company much like Career Builder, and searches through resumes of people who are currently looking for jobs and fits them to an open position they may be interested in. I remember signing up for Career Builder, Zip Recruiter, Media Bistro, Simply Hired etc. etc., and would check my daily emails on jobs they posted on their site. This was the first time I was actually reached out to and impressed someone with my resume right off the bat.
This opportunity couldn’t have come at a better time since I had no idea what I was going to do for work over the summer. Nannying was my main focus since I pretty much gave up on the idea on finding a writing gig before I move to California. I feel as though I was handed a plate of gold and they just said “here, it’s all yours.” I feel EXTREMELY lucky and blessed that this happened so quickly and it’s finally going to lead me to bigger and better projects, gigs and work opportunities.
The moral of this post for you twenty-somethings: don’t give up hope when you’re feeling lost & confused. Just like I said last week, patience truly is the key to getting what you want. When I wrote that post it was before I even knew this opportunity would come. Now I truly believe good things do come to those who wait, but also work their asses off for what they want. Having a positive attitude will only help you excel. You may be rolling your eyes as you’re reading this and thinking “she’s saying this now because she’s suddenly employed.” But I promise you, I’m not. I had a shitty, negative attitude these past few months and if I knew that I would be fine over the summer, I probably would have been happier & more upbeat. I find it interesting that just when I decide to switch my attitude around, I’m offered a wonderful opportunity. Coincidence? I’d like to think so, but this could be proof to all of us that if you are patient and understanding that there are just some things we cannot control, maybe we can finally get what we want.
Keep pushing yourself and don’t lose sight of your goal. Everything will come to you when the moment is right. Success is not a race.
You’ll get there. I believe in you
Just to make you laugh…
Side note: Highly recommend joining this site for job searching!!
Posted by tuningtheheart on May 8, 2013
Posted by tuningtheheart on May 4, 2013
My two friends and I were talking the other night about our parents, and how your perspective on them does a complete 180 when you are in your twenties.
I found this on a blog and it goes a little something like this…
-At 3 yrs: “Mommy/Daddy, I love you”
-At 10: “Mom/Dad, Whatever”
-At 16: “My Mom/Dad is so annoying”
-At 18: “I wanna leave this house.”
-At 25: “Mom/Dad, you were right.”
-At 30: “I want to go to Mom’s/Dad’s house.”
-At 50: “I don’t want to lose my Mom/Dad.”
-At 70: “I would give up EVERYTHING to have my Mom/Dad be with me right now.”
Or in my version…
When I was 8, I always believed my parents were superheros. I thought they were invincible; they could never get hurt and nothing bad could happen to them. When I was in trouble or hurt, they were always there to save me. I assumed they were constantly right and never made mistakes.
By the time I was a teenager, this completely changed. I thought the entire world revolved around me. I wanted absolutely nothing to do with my parents. If I was going to meet with my friends at the mall or the movies, I asked them to drop me off at the corner so they wouldn’t see me getting out of my mom’s red minivan. I was constantly throwing temper tantrums and running up to my room and slamming the door. Words of pure evil would come out of my mouth, and at a couple points during our fights I even said the three painful words no parent wants to hear: “I hate you.”
When I moved out to go to college, this feeling of resentment towards my parents gradually decreased. I started to see why they were so tough with me all those years and why discipline can actually be a positive thing. I began to appreciate them now and actually enjoyed coming back home.
Now, as I struggle with real-life issues in my twenties, not only do I appreciate my parents even more but I also see them as real people. I’ve seen my mother struggle with her own parents; they are in their late eighties now and she is super close with both of them. It’s been a difficult process for her to see them get older. Before, I wouldn’t have understood that what she is feeling is normal. But now, I don’t want to imagine watching my own parents grow old (even though they do every single day). It will literally crush me when they begin to forget where/who they are and how they got there. And seeing my own mother go through this is difficult to watch and I want to be there for her 100 percent.
I’ve also talked to my mom about real-life situations, such as dealing with her divorce and her ex-husband, the period of her life when she was a single mom, and when she had to move back in with her parents because she was struggling financially. This makes me realize that no, my mom is not perfect; she is a human being that goes through problems just like I do. But she is the strongest woman I know and I am so proud to call her my mom.
As for my dad, for the first time in my life, I’ve seen him and his parents’ relationship in a whole new light and how it is very different from my mom’s. I can’t even remember the last time I’ve seen my dad’s parents and that is heartbreaking to me. I’ve also talked to my dad about how he struggled through his twenties as well and he kind of just “lived” during that time. He didn’t have his shit together either and he was just figuring it out along the way. By the time he turned 30, he realized he needed to buckle down and he went back to school, all while working full-time and taking care of two kids. This is so amazing to me — I struggle just working full time every day, I CAN’T even imagine coming home and working on homework while trying to balance a family at the same time. I love you, Dad and I’m so proud of you too.
My friends were telling me their stories about what they have learned from their parents. While theirs are very different from mine, it’s interesting to see how we can all relate on the common ground of now understanding where our parents are coming from.
It’s pretty unbelievable to think that at one point, I wished at night I could somehow make them disappear. Now, I never want to lose them.
Posted by tuningtheheart on May 2, 2013
Do you constantly check the clock to see if it is almost time to get off work? Do you feel like your life is currently on hold and you’re just waiting for tomorrow to come already? Or maybe you’re content with the way things are, but you seem to be living in the future rather than the present (e.g: pondering on what you will eat for dinner even if it is only 8 in the morning; thinking about your wedding even when you are single; constantly wondering where you’ll be in your life a year from now).
Whether these examples pertain to you or not, we can all agree that our society is known for thinking ahead. While it is great to plan things ahead of time (how would we get things done otherwise?), what we don’t realize is how healthy it can truly be to go with the flow.
I find myself stressing over what my next step will be when my time with Owen comes to an end this coming Friday. This past weekend I’ve had major anxiety, wondering how I will pay my bills and save my money at the same time.
While it is extremely frustrating sitting around, waiting for the phone to ring or an email to pop up with an interest in my resume/application, I’ve come to realization that there are just some things in life I cannot control. And that’s okay.
If you have done everything in your power to give it your all and the next step is just waiting…be patient. Something will come. I truly believe there is a plan for us all, even if we don’t exactly know what it is yet. That’s the true beauty of life: when we do not know what’s to come but it’s bound to be something special.
Patience truly is a virtue, whether we like to agree with this statement or not. So live in the here and now and enjoy the life you’re living today, because tomorrow is a new beginning.
Posted by tuningtheheart on April 30, 2013
I’m back. Can you believe it?!
Sorry it has been so long, my loves. I’ve been going through a rollercoaster of emotions and needed some “time off.” I have been working full time so that has taken the majority of my days up. During these past few months, I’ve been gathering my thoughts together on what exactly I wanted this blog to be and how it could best represent my current life situation. As you may have noticed, I have already changed the about me, side section and even my banner photo.
When February hit, I realized how much my life had changed in the past year. It has done a complete 180. I am no longer in school, I no longer rely on my parents for their help financially (of course, they are always there if I’m in trouble, and they still help with the little things like health insurance and groceries on occasion), I rented my FIRST apartment on my own, I got (and lost) my first big girl job, ended a serious relationship, and met someone very special. While these things were BIG shocks to my life, they have shaped me into who I am today and I wouldn’t be where I am currently if none of it happened. I would say I’m a lot stronger and a lot braver than I have ever been, but could not be absolutely more terrified at the same time.
This blog has always been fun & sweet, simple & light. I would write topics on fashion, food, music and personal interests. While some posts were deeper than others, I felt like I wasn’t truly expressing my true inner emotions. I felt like I was showing people a life I wasn’t truly living; as though I have my shit together and living this wonderful, easy, perfect life. I’m not perfect, not even close. I’m not successful, but I’m doing everything in my power to get there. I’m not a genius, an inventor, an artist, or even a professional writer (although that is the ultimate goal, among many others).
I’m just a simple girl trying to find her place in this world.
I’m not going to change this blog into a diary and rant on how I “hate my job” or “poor me, my life is so hard,” but more of a “how to get through life in your twenties” of some sorts. I was inspired by other blogs I follow, Amy Poehler’s YouTube channel, and Darling Magazine’s mission to discuss real-life problems, beyond makeup issues and fashion crises. I want to connect with others that are also going through troubles in this early stage of their lives, or possibly celebrating something exciting that gives the rest of us hope. This isn’t a negative blog in any way. It’s about relating to each other, and understanding that there are ups & downs and twists & turns on this long journey ahead.
I want to discuss careers, relationships, health, goals/dreams, loneliness, happiness, changes (whether big or small), and most of all loving yourself. (of course if I find an ultimate beauty secret, yummy recipe or great fashion piece, I’ll be more than happy to share).
It can be difficult to find the beauty of your worth, trust me (I’m the hardest critic on myself), but we must realize we all have a purpose on this planet and we are all amazing in our own way.
Even if you are a freshly 20-year old who’s confident & ready for the next decade, or 29 and still utterly confused on what to do next, this is for you. Whether you’re prepared for this crazy journey or not, you will have to eventually come to terms with reality.
Today is the perfect time to finally face these issues head on, so why not get behind the wheel and take control of your life now?
Let’s ride this out together.
Posted by tuningtheheart on April 29, 2013
My valentine <3
As some of you may already know, my boyfriend, Drew, moved to Los Angeles about a month ago. I haven’t discussed much about our relationship on here, and I thought today would be the perfect way to finally open up about it.
On New Years Day, Drew left for the west coast to conquer his dreams as a filmmaker while I continue to pursue mine as a writer in Chicago. Even though we are both very passionate about what we do, we also feel the same way for each other. So we decided to take a leap of faith and continue our relationship long distance.
I would be lying if I said that these past couple of months have been easy. They actually have probably been the toughest months of my life and I know it’s only going to get harder.
I wouldn’t do this if there wasn’t a light at the end of the tunnel. You all know how long I’ve been wanting to go to California. I also recently got offered a freelancing gig with Darling Magazine, which is conveniently located in Los Angeles. Not to mention I plan on visiting SoCal a handful of times before making a final decision on whether I plan on moving there. So things are definitely looking up =]
People probably think we’re absolutely nuts for staying in a relationship based on skype, phone calls and old fashioned letters. But I don’t care what others have to say. Yeah, spending 2,000 miles apart every single day is not an ideal situation to be in. But if sleeping alone every night means I can still hear Drew’s voice the next morning, it’s worth it. Because I’m absolutely head over heels for this guy.
I’ve never had someone make me feel as beautiful as he does. He’s made me stronger, more independent and has helped me gain confidence within myself. I’m extremely lucky to have him in my life.
Happy Valentine’s Day Andrew <3
Posted by tuningtheheart on February 14, 2013
2) Chocolate labs
3) Mushroom candles
5) The ocean
…that make me smile
These are the simple things I love. Just because it’s almost Valentine’s Day and you don’t have a someone lovely by your side, doesn’t mean you have to spend it alone. Spend it with the one thing you love.
What do you love with all of your heart?
Posted by tuningtheheart on February 14, 2013
Hello everyone! How was your weekend?
Minnesota was a lot of fun. I snowboarded, which I haven’t done in four years and it was only my second time!! It was terrifying at first so I hit the bunny hill right when I got there. I was immediately reminded that the rope tow was still a pain in the ass, so I took the plunge and headed for an actual hill. I was sooo nervous as Amanda and I climbed higher and higher on the ski lift (you can’t really tell in the pictures, I tried to put on a brave face!). But then swhooosh, we were off down the hill! I honestly couldn’t have done it without Amanda. She put her athletic skills to use by teaching me how to get back up on my feet (I fell quite a lot so she told me to flip over on my stomach and then stand; I didn’t know that my first time!).
I’m so happy I conquered my extreme fear of heights (remember my fearless tattoo? to me, it’s not about having no fears at all, but conquering them in the end). I can’t WAIT to go snowboarding again!
We also stopped at the Mall of America for some shopping which was almost like stepping into another world. I knew there was a rollercoaster inside, but I had no idea it’s basically an amusement park!! A ferris wheel, a playground for kids and multiple restaurants (Johnny Rockets?! mmm), and not to mention hundreds of stores, I felt like I was in retail heaven.
Top left: me being a huge dork next to a ninja turtle
Top right: a GIANT peeps store!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday night, we went to a pure romance party which was a blast. I can’t really discuss much of it here since I know my parents are reading this, but you can picture in your minds what went down
Sunday, Amanda and I enjoyed a nice, relaxing hot tub escape in the midst of the Minnesota snowfall. It was so beautiful. I really wish I got a picture! It snowed 9 inches there!
As we all know, Valentine’s Day is just a handful of days away. So in celebration of it (even though I’m not into the whole cheesy, lovey-dovey stuff), I wanted to dedicate something I love every day on my blog.
Today it’s artists/songs that I love and get me through my hectic life.
Who do you love to listen to?
Posted by tuningtheheart on February 12, 2013
Last night, my friend Stephanie and I were invited over to my friend’s/former boss’, Jodie, new arts and crafts studio, Sew Crafty (how cute is that name?).
Located near the corner of Fullerton and Damen in the heart of Bucktown, Sew Crafty currently specializes in fun crafting classes and birthday party events for kids, but that is soon to change as Jodie explained to me she wants to make it “adult-friendly” as well.
Sew Crafty’s goal is to “empower girls to embrace and celebrate their creativity by bringing fun and educational crafting projects to them.” What a fun mission!
While Jodie is just beginning to create adult classes, she spilled some of her ideas with me and I am thrilled to be a part of it along the way.
Steph, Sarah and I had a blast with the project Jodie provided for us. Very pinterest-inspired, Jodie had the idea of creating something fun out of mason jars. There are a myriad of adorable ways you can use these leftover jars. Jodie’s clever plan was to turn them into lovely candles. She had dozens of different types of fabric and three different kinds of jars to choose from.
After choosing a jar and the fabric, we cut the fabric into a small square and then into one inch strips. Using lots and lots of mod podge (and patience), we then carefully placed each strip inside the jar.
Once each strip was glued on nicely, we wrapped ribbons or bows around the top.
I loved the way mine turned out! Can you guess which two are mine? They all look so adorable! And I love the way they glow with the battery-powered candles turned on inside
What are your plans this weekend? I’m going on a little getaway trip with Amanda. We’re going back to her roots in New Brighton, Minnesota. We have plans to stop at the mall of america (super stoked because I’ve never been!), snowboarding until 3 a.m. Friday night, and a pure romance party on Saturday which should get interesting
Have a lovely weekend!
Posted by tuningtheheart on February 7, 2013